Do you ever wake up in the morning and feel like you don’t have a clue what you’re doing? How did I get to a quarter century? It seems that only minutes ago I was walking round the halls of sixth form with friends talking about weekend plans and the worry of the great big pile of texts I had to read for my lit exam. Some mornings I wake up and want to dig deep into the duvet; squirreling myself further and soaking up my own company. But no, we swing our legs out of bed and stumble to brush our teeth, fix our hair and get in the car in time for our trip to work. I find it worrying that sometimes I do the drive to the office and can’t actually remember doing it, what with all the thoughts buzzing around in my head.
I am always really amazed by people who know what they want from life. Whether it’s the girl in the sandwich van who dreams of opening her own cafe, or the boy who needs to earn enough money to kick his company off the ground, I envy them for having drive and dreams. There is something to be said for being the child that wants to be a doctor and therefore goes about doing it. I was the little girl who was too dreamy to think about careers, and at twenty five I’m the slightly bigger girl (I haven’t ACTUALLY grown that much) who has her head in the clouds. Commitment and decision are alien to me (ask me about owning a house or calling someone my boyfriend and see a Laura shaped hole in the nearest wall!)
But we all have dreams. So how come we don’t live them? No one can tell you that your dreams won’t be reality, and I’m a strong believer of reaching out and grabbing things, or life will pass you by. You might want to apply for your ideal job but worry of not having the qualifications, or want to ask someone out but fear rejection, yet we need to stand up and seize the moment. It’s fleeting, and once you have pulled your socks up and decided to take the step, you might find it’s fluttered away like a feather in the wind.
My dad tells me that I can do whatever I set my mind to, and that no dream is too big. I’m a smart cookie, and I’m pretty tough too, so maybe it’s time to suck it up and see.